Donnerstag, 20. Juni 2019

The truth about vaccinations

The subject of vaccinations has been a subject of much debate among those who see the simple science of the benefits of vaccinations and those who are disturbed by the numerous ingredients in said vaccinations that they doubt the benefits of. And of course there is an official scientific explanation for each of those benefits that those who exclaim their doubt do not wish to accept.

There is a deeper truth about all of this however. It is not surprising, of course, there is always a deeper truth about everything. Not the truth that the idiots that social media-controlled mob would tell you about something about vaccinations not doing what they are told to do, but a much deeper truth than that.

There is some concern among those who doubt the worth vaccines that one of the ingredients is mouse brain. The brain of mice. They use this as an argument against vaccines. They put the brain of mice into vaccines and therefore they argue that there is something more sinister to vaccines than simply immunizing you to any given disease. That as we all know that we all studied basic science is not the case, of course, obviously, vaccines do indeed immunize each of us to any given disease, that is indeed how it is, we are given the vaccines and contrary to all conspiracy theories, they do indeed immunize us to common diseases, there is nothing sinister to that on a basic level.

There is however a reason that besides all the things that do indeed immunize us to diseases and do indeed do us a benefit, we are injected mouse brain, the brain of mice. This is something that as part of the so-called "nerdy" community, the community that reads more in fiction than it wants to be fed in pop culture, you may know from a fictional tale told by Douglas Adams. That mice are the most intelligent race on Earth.

That is the thing. Where do you think Douglas Adams got it from? Do you think he came up with it by himself? Do you really believe that? Well, Douglas Adams, he was a very talented and very creative writer, but he did not come up with that idea. He took an idea that was first written down in a 7th century Hindu text that mice were indeed the top of the evolution on Earth. I cannot quote said text easily because my knowledge of Sankskrit is not what I would wish it to be, but the general idea is that Gaia, our planet as a living being has the lifeforms that live on it as avatars as itself, and that we, as humans, are the ones that may do all the complex thinking, the true superior beings, the true superior avatars of Gaia are the ones who do all the controlling of the superstructure of Gaia's exterior, and indeed the controlling of the superstructure of Gaia's exterior is the managing of the income and the outcome, or, in more mundane terms, the managing of the waste.

So yes, when Gaia, our living planet made its avatars, it was indeed us humans who were meant to do the thinking part, but the thinking part was not considered to be the most important part, the managing of the resources was considered to be the most important part, and therefore those who manage the resources, and in turn, those who manage the waste of said resources, were considered the most important part. So indeed, the highest avatars of Gaia, as according to those ancient Hindu texts, were indeed the highest lifeforms on Earth, and Douglas Adams was simply quoting that when he wrote his story.

So there is a different story when we talk about vaccinations. When we are injected smaller versions of the diseases that surround us to shield us from the larger versions of those diseases, those vaccinations do indeed do the jobs they are intended to do. There is no doubt about that and no conspiracy to be inferred. But beyond that what they do is inject us with the consciousness of the highest avatars of Gaia, as a demonstration of our unreadiness, a message from the highest avatars of Gaia that we as humans may have come far, we are not yet ready to proceed without their interference.

I find this knowledge both humbling and reaffirming. We, as humans, are who we are. But the avatars of Gaia are watching over us, and are trying to actively steer us in the right direction. It may seem patronizing, but as we proceed, we may discover that being given pointers in the right direction can do us more good than harm.

Dienstag, 5. Februar 2019

It walks among us

Many years ago, before untamed, fiery youth gave way to sobering maturity, there was a time in my life I lived it in the most truly wild and adventurous manner. And while in intention it may have been no more than the usual rebellion as a rite of passage that human beings celebrate as an extended coming of age ceremony to fully experience the seemingly limitless possibilities of youth, it led, by numerous unplannable coincidences of being in the right places at the right time, to a respectable majority of my acquired wealth of knowledge of other worlds and how they interact with our own. At the time it was no more than a mere collection of anecdotes, strange occurances, taking place here and there, but through the gift of hindsight I can now safely say that they were puzzle pieces that upon increasing in number and through maturing reflection formed the bigger picture that I now possess.

One such anecdote made its permanent mark on my memory as it occured in the Spring of 2004. I was at the time constantly searching the internet for like-minded souls and by one coincidence or other at the time I was finding a girl equally interested in the deep of the occult as I was. We were soon conversing in subjects far beyond the conventions of human perception, and as worldly matters regularly follow the arcane, she was soon inviting me to her residence in the United States of America. Oh, to see those native lands of those immortal scholars of the occult, the soils that the likes of H.P. Lovecraft or Richard E. Byrd walked on, among these towers of steel and concrete and the endless stretches of primal land untouched by civilised humankind in between, it surely was an experience to behold all by itself.

The true relevations of the journey however came not from interaction with the ancient and primal, but with the very present and very modern. A shopping mall. Place of all places for the beginning of a spiritual experience. Buying alcohol. Occasion of all occasions. Being generally younger looking than I am, buying alcohol at a generic grocery store attached to a generic mall I was asked for documentation on my age, not a major surprise since I was 22 years old at the time, not far from the age Americans consider it prudent to allow the purchase of alcohol. I searched my pockets for my ID card and quickly displayed it properly upon locating it, proving that I was indeed 22 years of age. This is where it began causing problems, however. Being a visitor, from Germany, of course my ID card was German. Bundesrepublik Deutschland. The person I was displaying it to, for surely some valid reason, had however never seen such a document from my nation of origin. A discussion ensued on whether it is a valid, legal document. Having never seen an ID card from Germany, the person in charge questioned its validity. I disagreed. Okay, I made a scene. I am quite proud of my heritage, whatever it may stand for to whoever might comtemplate what it stands for, I am, and questioning the validity of official identification of my official nation of origin, it infuriated me, I made a scene.

Well, one thing led to another in one of those classic "this isn't going well" scenarios that all of us have been made all too familiar with at one point or another in their lives. Officers of the law had been called in to determine that clearly I was out of my mind, and being true to the purpose they were called for, that is exactly what they did. This man from a far away land, how can he create such conflict over something he is so clearly in the wrong about? Except of course I was not and the insinuation that something was clearly wrong about something clearly right was what created the conflict. To make a long story short, it was decided that my spending a night at a mental institution was the best way to go for all parties involved. It would not really solve anything, but everyone would have the peace and quiet they so obviously would have preferred over my insisting that the age on my German ID card entitles me to legally purchase some beers and a bottle of wine. It's how it goes, I must suppose.

Not too pleased myself but well aware of my lack of any other choice than to go along, I accompanied my surely well-meaning captors to a location that I entered blindly with the rage over the incident still burning inside me, but that would soon open my eyes to many new layers of reality. After the obligatory talk to someone clueless who studied medicine somewhere for some purpose that was impossible to discern from the conversation, I was put with other "patients". An eclectic collection of everything from obvious vegetables to very regular-seeming people that seemed as confused as I was as to why they had to stay at that place. Determining where everyone was on that aforementioned spectrum did lead to some very fruitless conversations, but something seemed to be guiding me to where destiny needed me to go, steering me clear quickly of the useless towards where my journey was meant to head.

I'm a smoker. I had no cigarettes left, and I saw an old man smoking, so I sat down next to him and asked him if he could loan me - a common German expression in that context when you mean "give for free" - a cigarette. He did, and we started talking about various subjects. Nothing too deep at first, it felt more like he was assessing whether I was a man who could be trusted. Then he said to me that he had some great stories about his past and wanted to share one of them with me. I listened.

He asked me if I had seen that movie. There are plenty of movies, I told him that, he's got to be more specific. That movie. That one with Kurt Russell. They are in Antarctica and something is there, something not from our world, and it's killing all of them. "Ahh, that one", I said to him.The Thing. From 1982. By John Carpenter. Of course I know, that's a classic. He asked me if I know the origin of the story and knowing now what he was referring to I told him that of course I know, there's an earlier movie from the 1950s, and that earlier movie was based on a book from the 1930s, I know the story. It was a funny moment when I told him, because he looked at me like I was stupid or had gone insane or something along those lines. He just told me that yes, those exist, those are fictional stories, and they did have some influence on that 1982 John Carpenter movie, but the true source material for that movie was actually a true story.

"I beg your pardon." I think something like that, that's what my response was. I was after all aware at what kind of institution I was being kept. Old guy wants to tell me a fantasy story, sure. He told me that clearly I can hear his accent, he was quite insistent, but I wasn't quite as fluent in English as I am now, so he had to explain to me that obviously he had a British accent that everybody should instantly be able to identify. Okay, so now I knew that, but what was that supposed to tell me? "You see", he said, "my father, he was one of the scientists. He was on one of those British expeditions, he was there, in Antarctica. I was only a child, but he was there, he was quite a scientist and we were all very proud of him, my mother, the whole family. But he came back, he was a changed man, he was strange, kept to himself, said little, had no warmth as a father or husband left in him and isolated himself and eventually he went away. I never knew why. I never knew what was behind it and neither did my mother. He just went away. Later however I decided to do some research on him, on what happened to him, why he left, where he went. And I found out he went to America. I had to do a lot of digging, a lot of digging I tell you, to retrace his steps. But I found out he made a friend here, a Hollywood kind of friend, a writer, someone who does those scripts for those movies."

His voice noticeably went sadder as he spoke. "I never found my father. I never got to speak to him again. But I found that writer friend of his, and I got to talk to him. He had written much of the script for that film, and he told me he got it from my father. My father told him the whole story, everything that happened on that Antarctic expedition, and he made it into the script of that film. And it happened almost exactly like it is shown in the film, at least that's what my father's friend said my father told him, and only minor changes were made to make the film link up to that one you mentioned from the fifties, and that book you mentioned. Almost everything else in the film, it's true, it's what happened. Except one thing."

"What thing?" I asked. He stared at me, with those deep eyes I only now noticed when he used them to catch me in their imaginary grip. "One thing..." he said. "The ending." He paused, played with his sparse belongings on the table we were sitting at, cigarettes, lighter, notebook, as if he was attempting to collect his thoughts by collecting small things on the table. "It's not how it happened, that ending", he said. "There's a kind of happy ending in the film. Yes, everybody dies, but so does the thing. That's not what happened in real life. My father came home, so did others, not because they were lucky, but because unlike the film they let the thing escape." He took a breath and repeated in a louder voice: "They let the thing escape."

"And it's still out there. It can be whatever it wants. And it only uses that ability to its own advantage. All it does it's only to its own advantage. So it's politicians. Bankers. Rich people. Famous people. Whatever gets the advantage, whatever puts it ahead. You see them acting strange, it's that thing. It's that thing my father found, that broke his mind, that made him come home never being the same he ever was. It's all that thing."

I couldn't believe him, and I asked him why he didn't tell anyone the story, why he didn't get it published, why he didn't try to get the word out about it, why he didn't try to warn people. But he assured me that he did. And that that was why he was here. He tried so many times, in so many ways, he delivered the evidence, he showed the documents, the details of his father's career, the clues of what he did after moving to the United States, the testimony from the writer, the evidence for how the behaviour of important people seemed to change randomly since his father's expedition, but all he was told ever since was that this was evidence of his paranoid schizophrenia and that he had to be kept safe from himself. That he clearly could not tell fantasy from reality and he had to be kept safe from himself as to not do harm to himself. Suffice to say there was no insanity in his voice, these were not the ramblings of a maniac, he was quite lucid and focused throughout the entire story. But I understand how some people would feel that a story like that would not be suitable for the ears of the general public. It might cause a panic or some other sort of confusion, I don't agree but I understand. It is how it is.

I vowed to keep the story in mind since the day I heard it so I could one day tell others about it. I never heard more of it since that night I spent at that institution was thankfully all the time I had to spend at that dreadful place. Thanks to the graceful skills of negotiation of my hosts it was decided that I would be held only for that one night and released the next day without repercussions.

Samstag, 9. Juni 2018

The truth of evil in European paganism

In the past I've heard a lot of "Odinists" and "Wotanists" and "Odalists" and whatnot talk about the Christian conquest of Europe and about how all Pagan identity was to be wiped out by the new Christian doctrine, I don't really know if those people really look around to see our current society. Greece, now one of the first countries in Europe to be worried about being taken over by Islam, was also one of the first to be reached by Christianity in its infancy and ask any modern Greek: Do you know who Zeus is? Do you know Herakles? Poseidon? Olympos?

Yes, here is the thing. European paganism is everywhere. There is no sign of Christianity attempting to wipe it out. Our weekdays, they're still named after Freya (Friday) and Thor (Thursday) and Wotan (Wednesday), our months are still named after ancient Roman pagan gods like June (Juno - Jupiter) or January (Janus), they're not wiped out or eliminated or anything. Our holidays, they're apporpriations of pagan holidays, such as Jule, the festival of the winter solstice, turning into Christmas, or the celebration of the spring equinox turning into Easter. They're not being wiped out, they're not being erased from memory. That is not what the invasion of Christianity into Europe intended.

You see, it was not about wiping out and replacing with a foreign doctrine, it never was. It was, from the beginning, sold as as "update". It was like "these pagan folks, they're good-hearted, they're good people, they're pious, they just need their faith to be a bit better" - their version of better. Like they saw the paganism here, they saw how it fit their needs, and did not want to tell people they're all wrong, they wanted to tell people their faith was okay, it just needed to be improved a little with monotheism and the one God sacrificing his son to die for our sins. Like okay, you're pagan and all, and all your faith and all your beliefs and all your rituals are all fine, it's just that your gods are actually one God, and everything's actually okay because for all you've sinned, that one God sent his son to die for it. It wasn't meant to be a replacement, it wasn't meant to tell people their past faith has been all wrong, it was meant to be an "update", summarizing their gods into one, and uniting it all under the idea of the sacrifice of the holy son of God. We still got our Jule with the different name and our Thor's day.

But Christianity did do something with our ancient faith. Just like the ancient Norwegians had no word for evil, and Christianity used the word for "ghosts" (aander) to mean "evil" (onde), Christianity wanted to erase the pagan concept of evil by all means necessary as its ideology of "pure good" was to exclude all things "evil". The result of that ideology is that contrary to the popular neo-pagan belief that all history of ancient pagan "good" being erased, we do indeed have texts like the poetic and prose Edda, which were deliberately preserved by Christian agitators to perpetuate a world in which all is "good" and in which the pagan beliefs spoke only of a world that is "good" that merely required a wholesome update by Christianity to make sense in its "goodness". That on the other hand is also the reason why there is a complete lack of pagan texts on all that is the opposite of the Christian definition of "good".

Here is the lie and the conspiracy that we hit. A century ago, author Howard Phillips Lovecraft heavily referenced a work he called the "Necronomicon", which he referred to as being of Arabic origin with no linguistic proof to back up his claim, and in today's society this is widely claimed to be his own work. This is a false claim, just like the author's claim of the origin was. Modern research indicates that indeed, rather than being a fictional creation of Lovecraft himself, and rather than being of a foreign origin, the "Necronomicon" is a linguistically distorted preservation of ancient European pagan tales of evil that were banned from Europe by the invading Christian ideologues. Indeed, "Arabic" linguistic influences can be clearly demostrated to be added on to the text later on when retracing the origins of the names. This is only because when these writings were forcefully banned from Europe, their only copies would remain in areas far from Europe and the European and Christian sphere of influence. The original names were much closer to Indo-European linguistic characteristics. This can clearly be seen in the root syllables of many of the names referenced in the "Necronomicon", if one compensates for the Arabizations that are a logical consequence of the texts' banishment on the European continent.

The texts referred to as the "Necronomicon" therefore represent a hidden puzzle piece in the re-establishment of a full picture of European paganism, the "dark side" that the conquest of Christianity in Europe was seeking to erase, but that is no less important to the European pagan spirit as the poetic and prose Edda. The names may have been distorted by their Arabic translations and re-translations over the centuries to take them away from their Indo-European linguistic origins, but they remain no less important a part of the European pagan pantheon as Odin or Thor.

Samstag, 5. Mai 2018

Voices from the other side

A lot has been said about the rumours of the Large Hadron Collider (LHC) by the European nuclear research organisation CERN being used to open portals into other dimensions in the Silicon Valley-owned yellow press for conspiracy theories otherwise known as social media. It is a subject that is easy to dismiss maybe for self-proclaimed sceptics, but I can say with certainty that it is not a subject you are truly qualified to comment on unless you have the necessary first hand experience.

It was in November 2016 that I took a rather unnecessarily complicated train route through Eastern France to catch one of the very rare performances by a pioneering German post-punk band in Grenoble. The train I took passed through the Ain department commune of Gex under which most of the LHC runs its circular path, intersecting it in two locations. I actually expected that fact to be no more than a footnote in a status update on travelling somewhere in Europe's middle of nowhere, akin to crossing the former inner-German border or other such instantly shrugged-off little travel factoids. What actually happened was ultimately a lot more memorable, albeit deeply discomforting and disturbing.

I was - to my memory - alone in my train compartment, being your standard modern man tapping away at a smartphone screen with one hand, being your standard rock 'n' roll troglodyte nursing a qualitatively questionable lager with the other, contemplating my punishingly uninteresting aforementioned travel tidbit when from out of nowhere I heard a voice talking to me. I turned around responding to the question I thought I heard. There was no one to be seen anywhere, and I wasn't all that sure what the question was or if it really was a question I actually heard. You know the lager, it wasn't the first, and considering the distance from Northern Germany to the French-Swiss border the last night of sleep was a fair bit in the past by then as well. But the voice returned, repeating what it said, or so I was somewhat sure. Still there was no one to be seen upon turning around and examining the compartment, and as for the content of what was said, well, it's where it gets a bit strange anyway.

You see, when I was spoken to - and I had a clear feeling that I was being addressed directly - I had something of an inner knowledge (for lack of a better term) of what was being said, some inner certainty of understanding, but I did not actually consciously understand the language that was spoken. I could not even identify, it was like nothing in terms of languages that I was familiar with. It feels odd using the word "alien", as you feel your credibility slipping away the instant you utter it, like "why don't you go to a talk show and talk about seeing a saucer and being abducted", but the voice speaking to me, the language it used, could only properly be described with that word, because it truly was alien. Imagine the most abrasive elements of Eastern European/Slavic languages amplified into almost a grinding noise at times, spoken with an unsettlingly inhuman intonation that had something of backmasking and pitchshifting an octave below your average human voice. An odd, unsettling experience, to say the least, but being my usual self I followed my first instinct to take a big sip from my can of beer and try to shrug it off as the common trickery the human brain likes to play on itself in times of stress and exhaustion.

Then it spoke again. Louder, more clearly.

"Why are you trespassing in my domain?"

I wouldn't know how to respond, not even in which direction since there's nobody to be seen to address, and certainly not in which language since while for whatever reason I can understand what is spoken, I would have no knowledge whatsoever to speak the language myself. "Ask the conductor" is what I mumbled in response when I heard the voice the first time, but by now I was uncomfortable enough to try to not be rude again. And it repeated.

"Why are you trespassing in my domain?"

Seconds passed in silence and I'm frozen, feeling the numbing beginnings of fear crawling under my skin.

"I will not tolerate intrusion. I see you all as you pass my realm as if it is yours. I will protect what is mine, and take what is yours as compensation for your invasions."

No matter how alien and inhuman the sound to this voice was, I could clearly identify an intense urgency to what it was saying. It was a matter of serious concern not only to the entity - another word to raise calls to send me off to a trash television talk show - speaking, but to those it was addressing. The grave reality and seriousness of its threat could be clearly heard in every nuance of its intonation. It was clear that the consequences for those living in or passing through the region, or perhaps our entire planet, would be of utmost gravity. I can remember today as if it was yesterday the sick feeling to my stomach caused by the existential fear this threat raised in me on both a conscious and subconscious level. It took quite some time for myself to recover from what really felt like a state of shock the moment this inhuman declaration of retribution drilled itself into my brain in its already unsettling form as an alien voice from no identifiable direction. For a moment so brief, it was ultimately one with a lasting traumatic effect.

The voice itself had already been gone by then. The train had already passed the vicinity of the LHC. It's a relatively small area and at the speed an average train is going you don't spend much time in the direct area. It might be a relief to think that maybe the retribution promised by the entity would be confined only to that particular area that is small in size and limited in population, but from the power that could be felt through the voice speaking to me, it would be far more likely to assume that its impact would stretch much further and affect a lot more. It is an unsettling aspect for myself to consider about the world of today, as there is neither much in terms of specifics to deliberately plan for or more importantly a timetable on when to expect the consequence of this development. All I know is that something will be coming in the foreseeable future and that there really is no way we can properly prepare for it.